My eyes are officially old.

It started around the 4th of July. We were driving to the fireworks and I noticed that the streetlights had rainbows around them. I first thought that maybe they were some new kind of lights that I hadn’t noticed before (we rarely go out and drive at night) so I asked Tom if he could see them and he couldn’t. So I did a quick Google and found out that it might be cataracts and I should really make an eye appointment ASAP. Lovely.

Well then it was the Fourth of July holiday and then it was the weekend so I finally got around to calling on Monday…and of course as it turns out my optometrist is no longer working there and the clinic doesn’t take our insurance (my doc was the only one that did) and I really needed an ophthalmologist and not an optometrist.

Since I had had an emergency ophthalmology appointment in Virginia, I knew that the first appointment would be covered without a referral so I made a few calls and found a local office that could get me in on Wednesday. They did suggest I try to bring a referral with me just to make life easier, so I sent my doctor a text and they got back with me the next day saying that I had to start with an appointment with the ophthalmology clinic at the hospital otherwise nothing would be covered. Lovely. But they took walk-ins so off I went.

They got me in quickly. The problem started when they asked me to take out my contacts for the first round of tests. The first contact came out really easily—but the second contact would not come out no matter what I did. And I tried. AND TRIED. AND TRIED. My eye was totally bloodshot and it hurt from trying to squeeze a contact out or grab it off my eye.

And you know what? It turns out I didn’t even have a contact in my damn eye. WHAT?! Yeah, I have no idea where it went because I know I put it in in the morning. I have never had that happen in 30 years of wearing contacts so I was just completely flummoxed.

So the first doctor came in and did an exam and then sent me to another room to get a scan of my eye and then it was back to have a second doctor come in and look at my eyes and ask some questions. And then a third doctor came in and looked in my eyes and asked me some questions. By this point I was getting a little worried because THREE doctors. (I probably could have asked who they all were but I didn’t and they didn’t offer. I’m guessing maybe the first one was a student, and then an optometrist, and then maybe an ophthalmologist.)

The good news is that I don’t have cataracts. Since I wasn’t seeing rainbows all the time or on a variety of lights, she attributed it to needing different contacts. (When I got my eyes last examined in February, the doctor said I was very close to needing bifocals but I could still get along with my current prescription. This doctor said I probably should have gone with bifocals in February.)

So I now wear multifocal lenses. It’s cool because I can see both distance and up close!! Of course they’re more expensive. Lovely.

It sucks getting old. But it could be worse.

I have a confession to make: Today has been a shitty parenting day.

I knew it wasn’t going to be all sunshine and roses because we did have some work to do before our houseguests arrive tomorrow…but I told them if we got everything done by noon then we could go to the pool. Easy, right?

They literally had less than an hour’s worth of work to do but we are currently on hour five because they can’t stop whining and complaining and fighting and giving me attitude. And not doing what they should be doing.

They have been having nonstop fun for days and days but today, when I’ve asked them to do a tiny bit of work to prepare for overnight houseguests FOR THEIR DUAL POOL BIRTHDAY PARTY, they lose their shit because they can’t follow directions and I refuse to give in and reward them for poor behavior.

I know being a kid is hard, but being a parent on days like today is something I am not prepared for (unfortunately I have lost my cool more than once). I even shut myself in my room at one point because I just. couldn’t. anymore.

I know today will blow over, but we need to do something because I cannot go on like this.

So I need all your suggestions. I’m totally open… books, theories, classes, therapy… Whatever.

#parentingsucks #keepingitreal

If you had asked me this morning, I’d say I was a damn fun person.

I love laughing and having fun and doing crazy things (have you ever flown across the country to meet a bunch of internet strangers?). Right?!

And then I started reading this book: HAVE MORE FUN

It’s like I was meant to read this book. 😂

And now I know things need to change. If my life ended tomorrow would I regret the 300 unread emails? The clothes still in the dryer? The boxes still packed from our last move? Hell no. I’d regret not playing in the rain with my kids, not taking that cruise with the family, and not spending as much time with friends as we can before we move again.

Don’t get me wrong, the kids are still going to have to do their reading and workbook pages, but I’m going to make a concerted effort for us all to have more fun.

FRIENDS, IT’S ACCOUNTABILITY TIME.

Most of you know I lost a lot of weight a few years ago. And it was mostly easy–141 pounds in 1.5 years eating whatever I wanted with just walking as my exercise? Sign me up! And I swore I’d never let myself get that heavy again. But friends, maintenance is a slippery slope and a few pounds here and there add up. No, I am not back to my original weight, but I have gained back an embarrassing amount. 🤦‍♀️

I have tried to restart a handful of times now–and have lost like 10# each time–but I always went back to my bad habits pretty quickly. I mean, MARGARITAS, y’all…and all. the. food. all. the. time. And I mean ALL the food.

But, shit got serious when my pants went past just being tight and actually stopped fitting. Like can’t even get them on to zip them. Since I had followed Naturally Slim rules, I had gotten rid of all my bigger sizes so I wouldn’t be tempted to let myself get back to that size…so it was yoga pants, leggings, and maxi skirts for me! But then I remembered that I had actually kept like 3 pair of jeans in one size up…so those are now in my closet.

BUT NOT FOR LONG!

Tom and I have BOTH restarted Naturally Slim again. We are on Day 5 and I am currently down 10.2 pounds! (Man oh man do I love the first week back on the plan!) And I have walked every morning (with the kids!) this week.

So, I did it once…I can do it again. I simply have to. I have too many damn cute clothes in my closet that I want to wear again!! 😜

I’m pretty sure I’m not alone.

When you wake up with a screaming back and a 2-mile walk doesn’t help, you end up on the floor trying to remember the stretches your physical therapist showed you three months ago because you haven’t been doing them daily like you’re supposed to. 🤦🏻‍♀️

I’ve had a bad back for many years (not helped by being obese for most of those) and while losing weight did help, it wasn’t a cure-all. I try to be careful, but once you reach a certain point in your life, you could throw your back out rolling over in bed, putting your wet hair in a towel, or putting your socks on (true stories). All I know is I am never shoveling snow again–never ever ever, even if it’s just for 30 seconds. 😒❄️

Tell me how you’ve managed to injure yourself in a simple everyday way so we can commiserate.

I want to crawl back into bed.

You ever have one of those days where you just want to crawl back into bed and not do anything? Just skip being an adult because you’re tired of all the little annoyances?

Today is that day for me, y’all. Long story short I’m tired of losing shit and feeling fat and stupid sibling fights and NOT KNOWING WHAT PURSE TO TAKE ON A DAY TRIP. 😒

Yet here I sit at Katie’s makeup gymnastics class because I had to schedule it two weeks ago and today was just as good a day as any. And from here we go directly to a friend’s house so we can take all the kids to a museum in Milwaukee.

I know in the grand scheme of things all this minutiae doesn’t matter and as soon as I’m with my friend I’ll be happier, but I might still crawl into bed when we get home just so I can pretend for a bit that I have no responsibilities. 🛌

Do you open your circle or leave it closed?

I never thought about my situation (being a military spouse) in quite these terms but as soon as I read it I knew it was perfect. 😢

I can’t tell you the number of times that I have tried to get into a circle of women and they just ignored me or barely talked to me. School, sports, work, business–take your pick. They have their friends and their circle and anyone not already in it is not really welcome.

I’m sure they don’t really think that much about some random woman saying something to them or asking a question–and they might answer or chat pleasantly for a minute–but then they go back to their own group. If they even let you in at all. It’s exhausting and annoying and depressing and I get tired of it duty station after duty station.

Which is why when someone actually takes a minute to talk with you and connect with you AND OPENS THE CIRCLE, you have made a friend (or friends) for life.

Spring Break Day 5

☀️I kinda got to sleep in today…not as late as I’d hoped but at least it was after 5. But I did hear Tom home so that confused me… Turns out he tried pullups yesterday and screwed up his screwed up back. I tell him quit exercising so he doesn’t kill himself. I mean duh. 🤪

☀️ Then we realized Owen needed to go to the doctor but my only choices for appointments were in 20 minutes (impossible) or tomorrow at 8 (yuck). It’s a good thing he’s not critically sick.

☀️Then it was off to get my nails done and I ended up with about the same color I’d had one time before which is fine but not quite what I wanted but didn’t realize until it was too late. #firstworldproblems

☀️ My next stop was a new (to me) liquor store because we are out of Absolut Peppar and it’s crucial for Bloody Marys and regular stores don’t seem to carry it. Of course I checked out the margarita selection because duh.

☀️ Then a nearby playground with the kids and a friend because it’s 60-freaking-degrees and unbelievably I was actually almost too warm sitting in the sun. Like I had to take off my cardigan too warm. But I wasn’t complaining.

☀️ And lastly home to sit in my new hanging chair to enjoy the weather and read a book, at which point the sun went away and it got too cold without a coat. (Now I’m complaining.) 😂

Mammogram Redux

So if you remember I had a mammogram a little while back. I don’t care about them, they are no sweat, who cares, just another day. I got a phone call a day or so later saying everything looked good on my bloodwork, so I forgot about it.

Well, if you can guess where I’m going with this… About 5 days later I get a registered letter from the hospital and…I was getting called back for further evaluation. So, the other call was obviously ONLY for bloodwork and NOT the mammogram…which makes sense now, but when you have been to the hospital four out of five days for many different appointments, there could be confusion.

Thankfully I am not one to spiral and I did not even google anything…but still, I won’t lie, there was that moment of panic. So I had to wait for my PCM to call back with a consultation order and then I got to schedule the callback mammogram.

The day of I still wasn’t really worried or concerned. I knew the likelihood of finding anything was low, but in the back of my mind…the niggling voice was still there… What if??? Which got worse as the ultrasounds continued (they had to do each side) and then it was over and I was waiting for the doctor.

He came in within five minutes and said straight up “You’re all clear. Everything is benign. See you in a year!”

Phew.

You’re staying… No you’re being discharged.

Tom texted me in the morning to say they were holding him another day… So I went to visit after the kids for on the bus…and while I was there they decided he was being discharged! After waiting since 7am to get the MRI results, the doc said it’s a torn nerve (and of course the doc came in during the five minutes I ran too check on another appointment). They said he doesn’t need IV drugs so they’re sending him home since there’s not much else they can do at the hospital. It is what it is. The meds will help with inflammation and pain and he gets an appointment with a pain clinic for a steroid shot. But that’s it. If it rips more it’s serious—like they told him if his lower extremities get numb to come in immediately. 😳🥺

Of course, it took about two hours to get discharged and then an unplanned 45 minutes to get the meds at the pharmacy, so I had to scurry to find friends to get the kids off the bus. But all ended well and he’s home now.

Let’s just say we don’t have good backs in our house.

I threw my back out last week and Tom threw his out yesterday (reaching for something he dropped). He managed to hold out overnight until the kids went to school before going to the ER…

The typical drug routine didn’t work this time so long story short about five hours in (when his pain level was still at a 10) they ended up admitting him so they could do an MRI (the ER couldn’t administer it on their own for whatever reason).

I had to go home to eat lunch, pack his overnight bag, get the kids off the bus, and then we all went back for a picnic dinner and some cuddles.

He seemed a little better, but then he wasn’t moving. He said his pain was about a 3 laying there but any time he tried to move or stand it was a 10. He has an MRI scheduled for the morning so hopefully we will know more then.

Getting old sucks, part 31.

When you innocently go into the doc to get a refill on your back pain meds and end up being there for 2.5 hours. Which honestly was really efficient and I’m not even complaining. 😂

👨🏾‍⚕️The resident was very thorough which means my appointment with him lasted an hour.

👩🏼‍⚕️Then the doctor came in to oversee everything and she was in there another 15 minutes.

What did I win?! 🎉

1️⃣ Lab for bloodwork. I haven’t had a full panel in about five years.

2️⃣ Pharmacy for four scripts. The two I wanted plus two others.

3️⃣ While I was waiting, I went to the immunization clinic for a TDAP. Also tried to make the mammogram appointment but they were at lunch.

4️⃣ Back to Pharmacy to pick up scripts.

5️⃣ Radiology for lumbar x-rays just in case. This is where I interrupt you for your VISUALIZATION OF THE DAY:

I might just have flung a gloss across the radiology exam room floor because I forgot it was warming in my cleavage and I had to remove my bra. 😂 You’re welcome.

6️⃣ And now that I’m home I have to schedule the mammogram, my annual exam, and physical therapy.

Parenting struggle #3,471:

Katie decided it would be a great idea to empty the entire 64-crayon box into another box so she could use the individual inner crayon boxes for some game she created with her jewelry. Seriously?

I love that she’s creative but things like this make me insane. I know I shouldn’t care because it’s just a damn crayon box but I just know the boxes will likely get ruined (never put away), the crayons will never go back in their original boxes, and the crayons will likely end up all over the house, broken and lost, because nothing ever gets put away because KIDS.

And now I’m feeling guilty that I’ve stifled her creativity over a $4 box of crayons. Ugh.

Braces!!

Braces are coming shortly!! He is excited!!

Getting closer! First they have to remove the expander.

He wasn’t nervous but his feet did come off the chair while it was happening.

Picking colors! He gets to pick as many as he wants since his birthday is coming up! (Normally they get a max of two colors.)

He opted for rainbow colors since he was getting six brackets. And instead of purple he chose lilac for me. 🙂

Prepping his teeth.

Brackets going on!

First braces selfie! My baby!!!!!!!

After!! OMG.