Owen in his crib…trying to go to sleep!

This was taken a few nights ago, but it could realistically be ANY night. :))

It’s pretty long (about 6:20), but I just wanted to give you an idea of what he does every night. He generally always starts with kicking the musical aquarium (turning it on/off/on/off/on ad nauseum, which you can actually see in the very first seconds of the video), then he starts moving and rotating, starting the 180, he grabs the burp cloth, he wiggles, he kicks, he continues the 180, he kicks, he rolls on his side, he pauses, he sucks the burp cloth, he completes the 180 and moves on to a 360, he whips the burp cloth over his face, etc… Eventually, he passes out (although I didn’t catch that this time)—sometimes it’s in five minutes, sometimes it’s 20. But it’s always cute and fun to watch!

A Busy Day

First we had mom’s group from 10-noon and then we had physical therapy from 3-4. I never specifically woke the boy up, but he still didn’t nap as well as he normally does…so at the moment, I’m waiting for him to fall asleep (he was out within two minutes of leaving PT, but since I moved him to the pack-and-play when we got home, he woke up).

The mom’s group topic was sleep, and surprisingly, I didn’t have much to say or ask about…since Owen really is doing pretty well. The guest’s basic philosophy on everything was “If you like it and/or it works for you, go ahead and do it” — whether that means having them sleep in a car seat or having to take them on a car ride to get them to nap. While I agree with that to a certain extent, I draw a line at using anything really odd to get him to sleep. That said, he is apparently an easy baby since he goes down without a fight (most of the time).

It makes me feed bad (and good!) to hear what some of the other moms are going through sleep-wise…babies that can’t self-soothe at all or who have to be rocked to sleep before being put in the crib. Or babies who scream for an hour first or have to be walked around to calm down. Egads. I guess we have it easy. Most of them are still getting up at night, too, for at least one feeding—so I’m not alone. Of course, there is also a mom or two with a baby that sleeps from 7-7 or 10-8.

The hardest part of the group for me is seeing all the other babies rolling over or stretching themselves up on their arms or sitting up well on their own…since Owen is not quite there yet. Yeah yeah yeah I know all babies are different but it still stinks to see most of them ahead of him. A lot of the babies are also eating a lot of real food—like an entire baby jar at a time! They were surprised when I told them that Owen doesn’t really want anything to do with food—or that we just haven’t found the right food yet. He seems to want to eat (he opens his mouth when he sees the spoon) but he hasn’t liked any of his options yet. I happened to mention it to the physical therapist and she said by six months (which is next week!) he really should be eating some amount of solid foods…and said if he doesn’t start soon, she might recommend I talk to a specialist! Egads. Of course, I need to ask the pediatrician about it next week at his six-month appointment.

So, the physical therapy. She said he’s doing better. He rolls to one side much better than the other, so we have to keep working on that (he still doesn’t roll over on his own, except for a happy accident now and again). He has good neck and leg strength and his arm strength is getting better. We had thought today might be the last appointment for awhile, but after seeing him today, she said still wants to continue to see him. At least we have moved the appointment time to 3pm instead of 7am (although, honestly, I might like the 7am better because it’s MUCH quieter and cooler in there).

What missing two naps did…

So, he finally fell asleep for his nap about 6pm. I had put him in his crib, thinking maybe there were just too many distractions downstairs (it wasn’t any different from any other day when he naps downstairs, but you never know).

Turns out it was LUCKY I put him in his crib…because he didn’t just nap for a few hours like we thought he would. Noooo, he slept straight through until…4am! 10 HOURS! Holy wah! Tom and I had stayed up until about 10, hoping that he would wake up so he could wear his helmet again for a bit…but alas, it wasn’t meant to be.

At 4 after I fed him (after he sucked down his 6oz bottle in a matter of minutes), he was NOT his normal tired self. Crap. But I guess it should have been expected since he had just slept 10 hours! But he needed to go back to bed—he can’t start learning that the day starts that early!! So I turned on his mobile and left. I watched him for a few minutes on the monitor, and he was just chatting with himself and making not-tired noises and moving around. I turned off the monitor and shut our bedroom door so I didn’t hear anything…and I was able to fall back asleep. I checked around 6am when Tom was up and getting ready for work, and Owen was out. So, I’m not sure when he finally fell back to sleep, but he did.

Tom got him up around 6:30 and put his helmet on (by himself!) so by the time I got downstairs at 6:45 Owen was watching Sesame Street and jumping like normal. He still looks cute in the helmet, but he also looks so pathetic… Poor kid. I think it’s still cut too low above his eyes (they trimmed it some, but I think they can do more) because it looks like it covers his eyes and I constantly want to adjust it so he can see better. We’ll see what they say at our next appointment.

I was excited…

I was pretty exited last night when Owen ate an entire 8oz bottle before going to bed. He hasn’t done that in AGES, so I was sure he would have a good night’s sleep (read: he would sleep THROUGH the night—skipping his 2am feeding—and I would get a good night’s sleep for once).

Ha.

HA HA.

He was up at—are you ready?—MIDNIGHT. Mid-freaking-night.

ARE YOU KIDDING ME?! 88|

Every night I tell myself if this happens I will just LET him be noisy for as long as it takes to see if he will just put himself back to sleep…and every night I just end up getting up to feed him because the noise will be over quicker and I can get back to sleep quicker. Besides, I was sure he couldn’t be hungry, so I gave him his pacifier and turned on his mobile and went back to my room.

So, you guessed it. I was up within 20 minutes because he wasn’t quieting down—and was actually getting louder.

Then he was out and slept soundly until 6am when he started to stir—and I had to wake him up to feed him so we could get to his 7am PT appointment (who knows how long he might have slept/laid there quietly had I not had to get him up). Of course, I was up WAY before my 5:30 alarm. XX(

This sleep thing has got to change.

He’s killing me! No matter what time he goes down, he’s up around 2.

Usually he’s asleep by 7:30 or 8—and up at 2. Last night he didn’t fall asleep until after 9—and was still up at 2.

Then, he used to sleep a second round—until 6:30 or so. Now, it’s until maybe 5. XX(

This morning I went in at 5 and gave him his pacifier and turned on the mobile…and then tried to get back to sleep myself. I was up again at 6 because—surprise!—he was up again.

So I fed him—and he didn’t even finish the four ounces! So my guess is that he wasn’t really hungry but didn’t want to sleep anymore…but he went back to sleep fairly quickly—so he must have still been tired, right? I kept my fingers crossed that maybe he would sleep until 9 or something.

Ha.

HA HA.

He was up at 7:15. Sigh.

I’m sooooo tired.

I thought things were supposed to get better as he got older?

About last night…

So about 10:30 he finally went down with his pacifier and burp cloth—without a screaming fit. And he slept straight through until about 4am. That is fewer hours than he usually sleeps (during the first stretch) on a good night, but he took his bottle and went down again—then woke up his normal happy self…completely sideways and kicking like mad at his Ocean Wonders Aquarium.

And the biggest surprise of all? When he got up here was no poop. Egads.

And he managed to go through two outfits in a matter of 20 minutes. Egads.

Different hours, please.

The hours Owen keeps are driving me insane.

Sure, he sleeps anywhere from 6-8 hours at a time on most nights—but the problem is that they start early and end early and still require me to get up to feed him once around 2am-4am.

Last night he napped much later than usual (from about 6-8:30) so he didn’t get his last bottle until about 9 and then didn’t go to bed (fall asleep) until about 9:30. So, we thought, maybe—JUST MAYBE—he will sleep later…or skip his early-morning feeding.

Ha.

HAHA.

Yeah, he was up at 4. He was back down by 4:20, but was up squawking and talking and cooing COMPLETELY WIDE AWAKE.

Of course, this is the time of day when I hate Tom the most, LOL (and I told him that, so it’s not a secret). His alarm goes of about 4:30, and he usually takes care of the boy in the morning so I can get a little more sleep. But does he get up when his alarm goes off? Noooooooo. Because at that moment, the boy is quiet, so Tom falls back asleep. But 15 seconds later Owen is noisy again, so of course I hear him and it keeps me up…and Tom is snoring away. 😐

After listening to Owen for about 30 minutes, hoping he will fall asleep again (so I can, too!) and realizing he’s NOT going to (so I can’t), I finally roll out of bed again and suddenly Tom pops up and says “Don’t worry, I’ll get him.”

Sorry, babe—too late. Where were you 30-45 minutes ago? |-|

So, going to better later does NOTHING to help the schedule. It’s almost better when he goes to bed WAY earlier—he seems to sleep a little longer (even though I am up at 2:30 or so to feed him) but then he falls back asleep for another hour or two—which means I get more sleep as well.

I can’t wait for this sleep thing to get better. Sure, I’m not up every hour or two all night anymore, but it still wears on me. And since I am not quite as exhausted in the middle of the night, it means I can’t fall back to sleep as quickly as I once could…which means I am usually up for at least an hour or more when I DO get up with him.

Sigh.

Not yet…

He hasn’t slept through the night again…yet. |-| But he does seem to be sleeping well enough…the first night after his 10-hour stretch I only got up once. And then last night he went to bed at about 7:30 without a last bottle—and slept until 3:30. ❗ And after his middle-of-the-night bottle, he seems to be sleeping better (i.e. longer).

We’re keeping our fingers crossed. 🙂

Once more, please!

So last night was a dream. For real.

Owen had his last bottle and was sleeping by 8pm. And want to take a guess as to when he woke up?

Anyone?

A guess?

5:45!! 88|

As in…almost 10 straight hours!!

I know, I know—I couldn’t believe it myself! That said, I was up twice (about 11:30pm to roll over and then at 3:30am to pee—and to check the monitor to make sure aliens hadn’t abducted my boy from his crib!) but was able to “sleep in” until almost 6! Heaven!

Except.

In the middle of the night I came down with a sore throat… Yuck. The last thing I need is to get sick—but I think it’s coming.

So, I’m hoping we can recreate today whatever happened yesterday to have him sleep another 10 hours (but of course he probably won’t, because now I am sick and NEED the sleep)…

What a stinker!

So the past two nights we’ve tried putting Owen to bed about a half hour earlier, and if you’ve been reading along, you know it hasn’t been going well/helping any. So tonight we decided to just go back to what we have been doing—which is to say, putting him to bed around 8 or so (or whatever time it was when he seemed hungry and tired).

So what happened?

The little shit—while we weren’t looking and were out of the room for about two minutes—fell asleep in his jumpy chair! At about 7:15! |-|

Of course, Tom was still in the nursery installing room-darkening curtains and making noise, so I walked around with a sleepy-then-sleeping Owen in my arms. When I layed him in the crib at 7:45 he was OUT. Didn’t even move a muscle.

Fine, I thought. We’re following his schedule now so maybe the night will go well. Except, I thought, he only ate like 3oz before he fell asleep…

And we were up at 12:30. And again at 5.

Hoo boy.

Another sleep-deprived night.

This is getting old—fast. It’s amazing how quickly you get used to something…and let me tell you, I was VERY used to him sleeping 6-7 hours at a stretch. 😐

We tried the earlier-to-bed thing again last night…but again, it was only maybe 30 minutes earlier than normal. And he only slept until 12:30 (so maybe three hours for me), at which time he snarfed 6oz of formula. Then he was up at 5am, but he didn’t really want to eat (maybe 2oz) so I just put him back in the crib and put the mobile on…then listened to his jibber jabber for an hour or so. One or both of us must have fallen asleep for a bit, because I woke up at about 6:45 to him jabbering again.

I am thinking now, when he’s kinda sick, was not the best time to try the earlier-to-bed routine. Because we don’t know if his schedule disruption is due to a) being sick or b) the new routine. So I think we’ll go back to normal tonight and try again after he’s healthy.

Completely off schedule. Ugh.

So I put him down in his crib (instead of the swing) about 7:30 because he looked tired—rubbing his eyes, etc. No dice. So I tried the swing, and that seemed to work for a bit—until I went up to check on him and turned the music off (but left him swinging—baby steps!). By the time I got out of the bathroom, his eyes were open. I let him be and by 8am he was screeching. I went up and he had pooped, ugh! So I changed him, and put him back down in the crib. More screeching. So I tried feeding him again, and he ate like 2oz. Put him back down and he’s wiggly and whatnot, NOT wanting to sleep, even though he REALLY needs to.

This is going to be a long day.

—time lapse—

I moved him to the swing and he finally fell asleep. I went up about 20 minutes later and turned off the swing and music. I haven’t heard a peep yet…so hopefully this is working.

Can you say failure?

So last night we put Owen down about 30 minutes early (about 7pm). It may sound really early, but some nights he goes down at 7:30 so this wasn’t too much of a stretch. And the 30 minutes was the recommended tester starting time. He was out by 7:30, which was good. And we kept our fingers crossed.

Unfortunately, as it turned out, it wasn’t meant to be.

He was up at…11:30! And not just a “happened to wake up and will fall back asleep” up, but a “crying desperately for food” up. |-| That meant I basically had an hour nap. XX(

I really think something else had to be at work, because other nights, he has gone down at about the same time (i.e. give or take a half hour) and slept the entire night!

So after that 6oz bottle, he was up again at 4:30 (so, four more hours for me). We haven’t had two bottles in one night in FOREVER!!! I thought maybe he finally felt better, but this morning he was still congested and coughing. So who knows.

All I know is I am tiiiiiii-red today.

Healthy Sleep Habits, Happy Child

So I bought this book on a friend’s recommendation months ago and initially flipped through it. We were past most of the 8-12 week stuff (I hadn’t had the book then!) and he was still a bit too young for the 4-5 month stuff. I did, however, try to start paying attention to his sleep cues so I could put him down for naps instead of just waiting for him to fall asleep in his bouncy seat or on me.

But, since he just turned four months, it was time to revisit it.

So I just finished about half the book (skimming some parts)…and we have some changes to make. Hoo boy.

For one, we need to try an earlier bedtime. Right now, we try to do it any time after 7ish (it can be as late as 8). We have just been trying to see when he seems to get tired/hungry and go from there. But the book suggests trying 6:30 (well, 20+ minutes earlier than normal), saying that parents are afraid to try it thinking that the kid will get up earlier in the morning, but it generally isn’t the case—it actually helps them sleep longer. So we definitely need to try that. He isn’t sleeping THAT badly, but it would be nice for him to sleep longer. But it also relates to his morning nap…

He has been taking looooong morning naps. Generally anywhere from 3-4 hours! It’s not awful, but it is a sign that he might not be getting enough nighttime sleep (see the relation?!). Getting more sleep at night might lessen the length of the morning nap, which might then help with his afternoon naps (which he hasn’t seemed to want to take lately). Everything is related.

And speaking of his morning nap? We put him in the swing and he loves it. Well, that is okay to do as well…but it’s recommended that once he’s sleeping, you need to stop the swing. Even though it appears they are sleeping soundly, motionless sleep is best.

There is just so much to try and learn/remember… Now we just have to get dad to read the book so we can both be on the same page!!

Night #4?

Well, tonight he went to bed without dinner. 😐

Around dinnertime-ish (6:30) he started to get REALLY cranky and should have been hungry but he didn’t want to eat. So we thought we was tired (since he hadn’t really napped since his looooong 4-hour nap this morning). He refused to nap.

He was crying and snorting and wiggly and everything else—TOTALLY not like him, so we were sure something was wrong. So we figured he maybe had to poop or had gas, so tried the mylicon gas drops. And tried making a new bottle (his rice cereal bottle). Burped him. Changed his diaper.

STILL cranky.

But we noticed that while he was laying down he seemed better, so we put him in the crib with the mobile on and within about 10 minutes he was OUT. So he went to bed without eating…which probably means he will be up in 4-5 hours (or less).

So I can only imagine what the rest of my night will be…

Night #3?

Yeah… Not so much. 😐

It was back to normal last night—he went down about 8:30 (again, with about 7oz of rice cereal + formula) and was up wanting to eat at 2:30! Of course, I had stayed up until about 10…so I didn’t get much sleep.

After he ate and I put him back down, I kept checking on the monitor, and he moved around and whatnot for almost AN HOUR. I don’t know what time he finally fell asleep again, because I gave up and fell asleep sometime after 4. (I wasn’t staying up specifically to watch him—I wasn’t tired! I probably don’t have to tell you how much it stinks to be wide awake at 3am and not be able to get back to sleep.)

He is still sleeping now, which is good—except that now I am up because it is light out, I heard Tom getting ready for work, the dog came in to sleep with me, and I like to be up before him to be ready in case he wakes up screeching for food.

So…were the past two nights a fluke? Or was last night a fluke? Stay tuned for night #4!

Rice cereal results: night #2

So, anyone want to take a guess what happened? At bedtime, he ate about 7oz of formula with 1 T. of rice cereal in it.

And???

He slept from 8pm-5:30am!! 88|

For those of you not wanting to do math, that’s 9.5 hours! Did you hear me? NINE AND A HALF HOURS!!! 88| 88|

Holy freaking cow.

Of course, I didn’t sleep nearly that long…we went to bed about 9 and I woke up at 3:30 and couldn’t get back to sleep. That said, I still got a straight six hours (well, one bathroom break)!

The good morning continued by Tom not going to work out, so he was able to feed the boy while I showered and FINALLY put away three baskets of laundry that has been sitting in our room for weeks!

And then after a completely-different-smelling poopy diaper change (rice poop!), Owen fell back to sleep for another 30 minutes, which let me eat breakfast and start the laundry—and sit with Tom for a little bit before he left for work!

As I write this, he’s waking up and fussing a bit, so it’s time for mom duty.

Yeah, so…

Something had BETTER be up, because I don’t like what my baby is turning into. 🙁

Last night he was out cold after 4oz at 8pm, and then was up at—are you ready?—10:30!!! >:XX

And I was up until almost midnight with him because he was extremely fussy and fidgety and not wanting to eat then wanting to eat then spitting up. I even gave him some gas medicine in case that was the issue.

He did, then, sleep until 5am, but this morning? His eating is off, he refuses to nap, and he’s still VERY fussy and fidgety—including crying and fussing loudly, which he NEVER does. Before this, he always ate well in the morning and always went down easy for a long nap. But not lately!

It is soooo frustrating. I know he can’t stay exactly the same forever, but this is such a drastic change for him, something has to be wrong. And then I feel guilty because it’s driving me insane—but it’s not like it’s his fault! This is when I feel like a failure as a mom. Like I am NOT cut out for this.

I hope the pediatrician has some answers today.

What an eater!

So last night didn’t go as I expected. What else is new, right? :))

It took forever (it seemed) to put him to bed. I think we started at about 7:45 or 8 and the last time I looked at the clock (when he was still wiggling about) it was 9:30.

So, I figured, cool—he might sleep until 3:30 or 4:30.

Ha.

HA HA.

He was up at—are you ready?—12:30! HE ONLY SLEPT THREE HOURS! I debated just giving him a tide-me-over bottle but then thought no, I might as well just do our usual routine, so I made the full 6oz. And the little bugger snarfed it…and wanted more! So I ended up making another 2oz!! 88|

So I was back in bed by 1:30 and he was still wiggling away with his mobile on…but he was quiet, so all was well. And then he slept until 5:30—or four hours. Which, I remember being excited about him sleeping four hours in a row—but after nights of six and seven hours, four sucks. Especially since I thought maybe since he only slept three at first, the long shift would come second. Nope. Stinker.

Then when he got up at 5:30, I made another 6oz bottle (normally I would do 4oz but I had a feeling)…and he ate the entire thing! I hoped he would go back down for an hour or two (because I was exhausted) but, alas, he woke up when daddy came home from the gym (to shower) so we were both up for the day! XX(

But, holy wah, by 6am he had already eaten 14oz, or just about half of what he has normally been eating in a day (anywhere from 28-36, but usually about 32)! As of 11:30, he had eaten 22oz! I can’t wait to see how much his total is for the day. I am hoping he eats enough so that he doesn’t wake up tonight and sleeps right through to (at least) 6am. But I am guessing it’s a growth spurt and the non-sleeping will continue.

I know it’s only been four months (his four month birthday is next week) but at this rate, I am not sure he will have a sibling because I really don’t want to go through this again. |-|

New nipples!

For Owen, not for mom.

Hee. :>>

He seemed to really be having trouble sucking—and taking FOREVER—so we decided to up him to the next size nipple…so I went to Babies R Us today to stock up. And holy crap, he snarfs it down so quickly now it’s amazing.

Tonight I put him to bed—complete with extra burp time—in about 20 minutes (instead of the up-to-usual 60 minutes)! 88|

We are keeping our fingers crossed that:

  1. He stays asleep (sometimes when he goes down easy at first, he wakes up about 30-45 minutes later and wants another ounce or two).
  2. He eats and goes back down JUST as quickly in the middle of the night.

The parental patience gene.

I apparently do not have it.

Last night was probably the worst night we’ve had in the last month. My decent little sleeper, who usually sleeps 5-6 hours after we put him down, then eats, then goes back down for 2 or so hours…was up numerous times.

Starting at 12:45 (he went down at 8:30). 88|

Then 3:30 (until 4:30).

Then 5:15.

Then 6:30.

So I basically napped all night, in between him crying and the storm and Tom snoring.

During times (nights) like these, I wonder—seriously—how on earth people want to do this more than once. I mean, sure, I’d love another child…but last night, when I was soooo exhausted and losing patience because he would not sleep…I can’t imagine having the strength to do this again. Hell, some days I am not sure I have the strength to get through this kid. (Yeah, I know I do, but sometimes, it sure doesn’t feel like it.)

I do not have the parental patience gene. He really is a good baby—he has his cranky times, but overall, he rarely cries for no reason. But when he does, I find myself getting frustrated. At him AND at myself for being much less patient than I always thought I’d be. And then I feel guilty for feeling that way.

Hoo boy.

No more swaddling…?!

So, we’ve been swaddling Owen for bed at night. The practice was highly recommended, and we got used to it and enjoyed mixed results—he seemed to sleep well enough but was very Houdini-esqe and managed to escape frequently. Of course, the grandparents assumed this to mean he didn’t like being swaddled and was struggling to escape…and didn’t want us to swaddle him. And we just trusted the professionals and assumed he was a very wiggly baby and continued to swaddle him. (We did try NOT swaddling him a time or two and it didn’t seem to make any difference.)

So fast forward to Gramma Jean taking a night shift and not being too successful applying the swaddle…so I said we could NOT swaddle him if SHE chose because she would have to deal with the repercussions if he didn’t sleep well…and we could always go back to swaddling. So we didn’t swaddle…and we both got a big laugh out of his sleeping position (viewed from the monitor):

This was on Thursday, May 7.

Since then, we have continued…and for the most part I think it’s okay. But we we think it’s harder for him to go down—even if he seems TOTALLY out, as soon as we put him down, his arms shoot up and he flails around. I think when he was wrapped, he couldn’t tell as much that we were letting him go and setting him down. Secondarily, his little unwrapped hands get SO cold at night (the rest of him is warm and the room temp is at the recommended 68°-72° so don’t worry).

So we are still deciding what we’re doing, LOL.

A better night for both of us…

So after my day starting at 2:30am, I was in bed at 8 while Tom was putting Owen to bed. Turns out he went down about 8:15, had a brief fit about 8:30-9 (due to a burp that didn’t come out previously), and then slept until about 3:30!! Then he went back down about 4:15 and slept until 6:15—at which point he was just chattering away in his crib so I got up to pump so I could give him a bottle, but he was out again before I was done! He slept another half hour after that. I feel amazingly awake today, but still with an undercurrent of exhaustion. 🙂

So, whether the good night was due to him not really napping or the fact that he got some fresh air (we went for a walk around the park)…I’ll take it!

Advice from Facebook Friends

I posted my status as REALLY REALLY wish Owen would just take a freakin’ nap already. He’s soooo cranky. and received these responses:

Dayna C.—Put him to bed, and let him bawl. He’ll go to sleep, and be just fine. Tough love, mama, tough love!!

Jennifer M.—I agree with Dayna. He will learn to self-comfort and it will make a HUGE difference in his sleep habits, and yours:)
FYI- babies who don’t need much sleep are more intelligent. LOL

Me—Well, we just started real naps—putting him in the crib or pack-and-play (vs. letting him sleep on us or sit in his bouncy chair) so we want to give that a week or so first, before letting him cry. Besides the fact that it KILLS me to hear him cry (of course).

Robin W.—Man, I remember having that problem as well. I spent many afternoons just driving in the car while he slept. I didn’t get anything done, but I kept most of my sanity. Best of luck, Jen. Hope he starts taking some good naps soon.

More nightly frustration.

I am starting to think I am not cut out for being a parent [of a non-sleepy baby]. The no-sleep thing is enough to make me lose my mind. And I’m not even getting up every 2 hours anymore…

Last night he slept for a five-hour stretch, which has been about his usual lately (gone are the days of the 6-8 hour nights—what the hell happened, I have no idea). He usually goes back down for another 3 hours or so, but last night he decided he wasn’t tired, and pretty much just laid in his bed and chattered for a few hours—but it was enough to keep me up (coupled with hubby’s snoring) and then he wanted to eat again, so the process started again, but by then it was light and he obviously wasn’t sleeping anymore…

It’s just SO frustrating. And I know it will be over soon enough…but in the meantime, I feel like a horrible parent for getting so frustrated over it. Especially when he’s just being cute and smiling and cooing at me. I tell him “How dare you be so damn cute to me when I am mad at you for not sleeping!” 😛

So I am one exhausted mom this morning—I’ve been up since 2:30. 🙁