I’m going through my old photos…

I’m going through my old photos…
I love that they’re each snuggling with a cat pillow. Katie has Bella and Owen has Charlie.
Every so often I check the kid’s phones just to make sure nothing bad is going on. Tonight I found this on Katie’s phone, back from when Charlie died.
Look what happened during Owen’s championship baseball game tonight?!
I’m gonna take it as a sign that both cats found each other over the rainbow bridge, are now looking for their old buddy Fuzzy, and are patiently awaiting our arrival.
We made the hard decision to put our second cat, Bella, down today. After almost 18 years, to have both of them go within a few months is excruciating. But it’s time. Even though she’s totally changed personality and has gone from a cat that hides and hates people to a cat that doesn’t mind being carried around by kids and jumps up for snuggles…she really isn’t herself. Plus she’s having bodily function issues that would likely require lots of testing and maybe not even have a solution. I can’t do that to her. Or us.
I will probably second guess myself for awhile but deep down I know it’s time. And maybe her sister, Charlie, will welcome her with a sniff and a nuzzle and they’ll tell great stores about the family that loved them for almost two decades.
It’s so sad to take pics of the final moments but since the kids couldn’t be there…I do.
Who replaced my standoffish loner loves-to-hide cat with this this cat that loves to come up for shreeps and cuddles and purrs?
Seriously, I really wonder what the dynamics were between her and her sister that created such a distinct difference in personality.
These two have NEVER done this in 16 years. Charlie wasn’t ever mean but Bella obviously didn’t like her…so now that Charlie is gone, Bella is a totally different cat!
Katie loves her stuffed Charlie but she leaves it all over and freaks us out.
Since there are no bugs out yet and the weather is nice, we leave the sliding glass door open so Maggie can go in and out at her leisure… Otherwise she begs us to go out about 42 times a day.
But then this happens. She hasn’t ventured off the deck yet so we figure we’re safe for a while.
Bella came to visit me on the couch. And stayed. And let me pet her.
She came to see me on the couch. There’s a first time for everything.
Charlie and Bella were sisters but hadn’t really gotten along the past five years or so. They’d hiss at each other in passing and generally avoid one another.
Charlie had been our downstairs kitty—at every house. She rarely came upstairs and pretty much lived her life on the main floor. She had a special wet food diet (that her sister benefited from) but wouldn’t really cry for food until Tom set foot in the kitchen at whatever god early time he woke up (could be 4a, could be 6a). She did have a random caterwaul that could happen any time, but mostly at bedtime—we assumed it was because she was lonely or going senile.
Bella was our quiet upstairs MBR kitty. She didn’t seem to like people much so pretty much lived/hid in our bedroom—though she did go downstairs to eat and use the litter. She slept with us every night and never cried for food.
Now that Charlie is gone…my how things have changed.
Bella is downstairs most of the time and rarely sleeps with us. She sleeps in random cat beds and sits on the back of the couch. But!—WHAAAT?!—she has started crying at any and all hours of the night. This morning she woke us up SCREAMING (we assumed for food) at 4:30 and kept it up until 5:45 when she came upstairs to scream at us, come visit us in bed for a minute, then leave. But then was quiet—so maybe she wasn’t hungry…but lonely? But she obviously knows where we are since she’s lived in our bedroom for years?!
We didn’t expect any of this and it’s been interesting to watch. So what I’m basically saying is cats are weird.
I’ve been procrastinating picking up Charlie’s ashes until the initial wave of grief had passed. It’s been three weeks. I thought I’d be okay.
Nope. Nopity nope.
I’ve never gotten pet ashes before and probably wouldn’t have this time except the kids wanted them.
What a crappy day.
I got the kids a Charlie pillow and Katie loves it and carries it everywhere and even took it to “school” today. (Yes, that’s Charlie’s bed, too. Katie still carries that around.)
This is her new cuddle spot—as soon as Tom lays down, she moves here.
Seventeen years is a long time for a cat, but it was still too soon. I hated to make the call but she told us it was time.
We are all devastated of course, and the kids are really taking it hard—especially Katie since Charlie has been her best buddy since Day 1.
It’s hard to pick from all the thousands of pictures I have, so here’s just a few of the more recent ones.
Rest in peace, Charlie.
We had brunch with Anna and David today and they brought their dog, Honey. She’s a great dog and we love her but she wants to play with Maggie and the cats and they want NO part of it. Charlie actually lasted fairly long in her bed but eventually she snuck up the stairs and just sat there. She RARELY goes upstairs so you know she wasn’t herself.
So Charlie used to be my lap cat but as she’s gotten older she pretty much stays in her bed. But every once in awhile she will come up to visit on the couch and get cuddles for maybe 30-45 seconds…and I treasure it.
P.S. Yes, our tree is still up. Don’t care.