It’s amazing how the little things in life can change your mood.
I opened my email this morning and saw that Tom had written me at 2am. On one hand, I was thrilled that he wrote me :), but on the other hand, I was sad I missed him (even though I would not have normally been up at that time).
Then I sat at the computer for awhile—then with a start, I realized I didn’t have my phone with me (!), so I literally ran downstairs—and I had missed TWO calls from Tom. :'( Instantly, my mood went from happy to completely depressed. Since he left, I have had my phone on me, at my side, or within reach EVERY SECOND OF THE DAY. Until this morning. I was just kicking myself. TWO CALLS! I missed TWO CALLS! And the last one I only missed by a minute!!! :'( I got a tear in my eye, I started moping around the house, and I was sad. I had been planning to take a shower and thought “Screw it, I don’t even feel like doing that now.”
And then the phone rang—and it was Tom! :>> OH JOY! And I was happy again, and my mood changed immediately, and everything was right with the world!
This is the stuff that I forgot about that I don’t like…this is what makes the time apart hard to handle. But at least I get to talk to him frequently, and that is a good thing.